Day Two

Some of the biggest moments that you try to teach your kids end up to be teaching moments for yourself. I was so mad at Ava today for not being able to find her shorts for practice. In my anger, I decided that I would not help her and she would learn responsibility. I yelled to her, "you are so irresponsible." In that, I learned something. That, I needed to step away for a second to see the bigger picture. What did being responsible actually mean? It wasn't until I went downstairs and started to read Barack Obama's address to the schools and in it was a section about reaching your fullest potential. I realized that I feared that Ava would not reach her fullest potential. In fact, that would mean I failed as a parent. Enough said. If only next time, I could step back and really think before I speak.

How does this mean a big change for me? I want to be a better parent. That seems so hard. This week I want to concentrate on making the change, thinking before I speak. I want less ugliness to leave my mouth and more positive language to enter in my heart. Big Change.

Day One

I decided to start this journey on the same day Ava starts school. I didn't pick this date randomly. It is the date which I associate with structure. It is so hard to change what I think are the things that are not workings. But, it's not just about the struggle. It is also about the victory. I want to see where things are working for me. I have decided to divide up the areas of change so that I can take baby steps to greatness. The areas for improvement are fiscal, physical, environmental, family and emotional well being. I will pick one of these areas each week to make some significant change and write about it. Sometimes, I may improve in more than one. I hope this is the case. I have decided that the first week is about physical.

I am heading to Yoga!